The good

Received an email from Helene Carpenter today! :D

For all whose name is listed above:

Very Important notice
Notification of presentation and marking by external examiner from England.

It is compulsory for the above mentioned students to set their work up to the highest possible standard on White tables on before 12am on Friday 1st JUNE 2007, in room 402.

The table should be covered in white paper with your assessment work laid out as you did for your assessment. Everything should be labeled with your name and class and ID no. Presentation is very important Please consider your professional practice.

Oral presentation will be done individually, after which you will face the external examiners for a one-on-one interview. Check with Emma Dick for your individual dates and timeslots when you return to set up your tables. Good Luck.


I was so delighted to see my name together with my good friends in school: Shariff, Veliani, Yunyee, Veronike and Varian and Desmond are both on reserve list. We worked so hard together through the last week before assessment. All the overnights, hardwork and tears.

Imagine what kind of damages I could have done to myself if I missed this huge huge big big opportunity just because I was doing an arts council internship all the way in Venice. God is so humorous.

Rejected

I pleaded with Jac for the 3rd time tonight to go watch Aguilera with me but all I got was...

"Can't you find someone else?"
"No... not even Toe."
"Well, are you even surprised?"

Gahh. I grew up singing to her songs, I even learnt her spanish songs! I cannot not be there for her first time and maybe the only time in my sunny island.

I am going to save to get a good ticket for myself. Hmph. Upset.

True-spirited

So many nights since this toil at home/work began, I lay in bed, mind completely blank, heart totally emptied. Yet tonight as I softly retreat and return to allowing the Potter remould the clay after every shattering day, a smile gently came to me and it warmed my heart.

I can't remember the last time I thanked God for sending someone to stand by me, someone who went out of the way to help and understand, someone who did everything just because... we are friends. Just because. But I got the chance to thank God for this tonight.

I am blessed. :)

We died together

Toe and I shared a chicken pie last night and I began making trips to the toilet to puke. Everyone thought I was made of tissue paper until Toe woke up around 3am and started puking at my toilet, and me in the kitchen. This lasted the whole morning through.

I'm so glad it's over, so tired from all the vomiting and diarrhea.

I promise I will never ever eat chicken pie again.

Overcome evil with good

The past few days have been quite a frenzy. Took time out tonight after a shower to take Cuddy out for a walk. Walking is important to me. It is therapeutic. Probably it's the way you constantly walk forward, leaving something behind yet finding something new with every step. It permits me to constantly wonder what to let go (the bad), then to ask, "what now, Lord?" and think of something new (the good).

This must be the Romans 12 transformation.

Bublé's new song "Lost" and the redone version of "Always On My Mind" is playing on repeat tonight. I love it when he sings "fly fly fly away". I hope it brings good dreams because tomorrow will be another day of frenzy.

Saturday Night Fever!

I went out with my good friends tonight and they chose a really nice pair of red shades for me! :D And I'm loving it so much I'm wearing it right now as I sit in bed with my pyjamas and use my lovely mac.

I wore it downstairs too when I went to the kitchen to get water and my dad stared and giggled. He asked, "Fever ah?"

Well, it's the Saturday Night Fever!!! :D

I don't know why I am so happy tonight. Maybe it was the Marche and the Haagan Daaz Fondue just now. Maybe it's the excitement to wake up at 7AM to join Hannah in bus shuttling the kids to HopeKids. Maybe it's seeing Toe and Yanzi on Monday. Maybe it's...

Maybe it's just because of these shades :D

Sunny day

Days become very cheery when you've got wonderful friends.

Yesterday Germs gave me a cup of tiramisu and two choc muffins she baked on her own. They tasted so yummy! Especially the tiramisu which was so very sweet, so very nice! She has agreed to give each guest at my wedding dinner (next time, years later) a cup. :D

Then I met Juffri and had alot of fun talking and laughing with him. Joyce appeared very much later than expected for our long awaited dinner. Still a very fruitful shepherding though. She helps me re-focus and overlook things that actually really don't matter.

This morning, I met Ruiz at 8AM in the morning outside her place so that we could travel to town together on a long long bus ride. We walked alot, spent alot. We got some (more) Buffalo David Bitton, CK, Ralph Lauren...

Happy, happy, happy!

____less

Some results from my prayer list:

Prayer 1: unfulfilled
Prayer 2: unfulfilled
Prayer 3: pending
Prayer 4: unfulfilled
Prayer 5: unfulfilled
Prayer 6: unfulfilled

Venice was prayer 6. I received the rejection letter today.

I'm... sad. Just... sad.

Let the Lights Shine

I have been reading legal documents everyday and I thank God I am not studying or practicing Law. The words are cold and ruthless. It ignores the profound loss.

What is built on hope and optimism, when fallen, has to be rebuilt on hope and optimism. We just want to go on. And sometimes, the best way is to celebrate.

Inward Looking?

Reflecting is the correct word.

Wonder of Oz

How did the Tin Woodman feel when he found his heart?

I wish I had a River

Whenever I sit still in a quiet place for a tiny moment, close my eyes and take a deep breath, and search deep deep within, it only brings me to tears.

So I refuse to allow myself to think when I'm lying in bed, but keep the dvds playing until my eyes decide when I should shut them.

Now I know why some people are so glued to the television and all the junk drama serials. It keeps them distracted from their silent surrounding, keeps their minds constantly wandering, instead of wondering.

I am watching the entire season 1-5 of Ally McBeal on repeat. This is one of my favourite scenes from one of my favourite episodes. Sarah McLachlan sings "River" beautifully but Robert Downer Jr plays and sings it with such acute emotions.