Happy Dreaming

So many things we dream of doing together. All the endless, limitless possibilities, beyond anyone's wildest imaginations.


Just imagine...





WOW.



But, only if.

For You Are Good

Dear God,

thank You for answering our prayer! :)

xxoo

Starlight, star bright.

Just had a good chat with Joe over MSN after he went home from music practice. I always enjoy sharing conversations with him because it brings a kind of warmth to talk about deeper issues in life besides laughing, joking and fooling around.

A few nights ago, mischievous little Ben came up to me and asked how Sunday service has been cos he has been missing me! He also said that it must really be very cold in the auditorium on Sunday. I thought that was something very strange to say and I asked how did he come to that conclusion and he replied saying that he always sees me layered with two or more tops of late.

Though I didn't exactly lead them for long, or in the best way, I'm glad I forged wonderful bonds with these people. Two of them, at least. It truly warms my heart to know that these people still remember me.

I look back and wonder why did I chose to leave the team in tertiary. I don't think I have been better off, but I know I could have been worse off if I stayed. I look towards the future and wonder what will become of me. Will I ever, ever, ever get the chance to give Him my talents' worth again? Because it diminishes under soil.

I close my eyes and pray. Seek and knock. And then, the darkness overwhelms and consumes me. It has been a painful wait, but the wounds are recovering by and by.

Halfway Round the World

Jac has left for the States to pursue her Masters' degree at Yale University in New Haven last Friday. It feels as if I have lost someone to pat my head when I am good, someone to scold me when I misbehave. Someone to share my joy with, someone to hold me when I'm crying.

I miss her already.

Compass without its needle?

How Lost Am I Without God?

I paused for a long time and thought. Searched deep within and thought. How lost would I be without God?

Miss my steps by a beat? Make a wrong turn? Stumble and fall? Be trapped in wilderness?

I don't know. But I dare not try.

Learn how to say "No"

Sometimes I let my heart get the better of logic. If there had to be something about me that I cannot understand, it would be how I always get so soft-hearted and allow certain things and people to sweep me off my feet so easily. Am I trusting too much?

All it takes is for someone to persuade me and talk me into it. Even when many doubts come running through my mind, I will still buy into it.

Why? Why like that ah, God?

I know You didn't make me stupid, but why am I acting so foolishly. I fear the day when I will act upon the silliest thought that could possible thrust my entire life in another direction.