Sea of Lights

I never got a chance to truly celebrate mid-autumn festival. But today, I got the chance to celebrate it like I have never grown up. It was something simple, something laughter-filled. How nice it was, sitting by the lake, marveling at God's wondrous artistry while spending meaningful time with very dear friends.

I hope you had a splendid one too. :)

post-JUMP07

Just when I thought that JUMP!2007 is finally over, which means all the crazy email floods would stop, my hotmail inbox greeted me with this:



But I'm looking forward to a good time of gathering. I enjoyed serving with them. ALOT.

My boss :)

So, what's next? Ps Prayut's prophesy over me really got me thinking very hard. I spoke with him over lunch yesterday just before the team went back to Bangkok. It was such a dear and heartwarming conversation together with Simon helping with the translation. I just talked to Ernie about it online and this was what he said.

Ernie says: (10:47:58 PM)
yesterday at waca pastor aaron shared something about seed
Ernie says: (10:48:05 PM)
the term planting a seed
Ernie says: (10:48:21 PM)
the word "seed" is more then just a plant seed that grows
Ernie says: (10:49:24 PM)
the explaintaion will sound a bit R rated but it kind make sense
Ernie says: (10:49:40 PM)
the seed in hebrew or greek is actually referring to sperm
Ernie says: (10:49:57 PM)
and as it is planted .... the results is reproduce
Ernie says: (10:50:18 PM)
so it makes sense as God always mentioned to be fruitful and multiply
Ernie says: (10:50:27 PM)
in every thing we do
Ernie says: (10:50:42 PM)
so this dancing seed in you ... will reproduce heaps of results
Ernie says: (10:50:46 PM)
and multiply!!!!

:)

What have I done?

A whole week of 5AM "goodnights", doing all that has to be done and after the hurricane wind has swept by, my heart breaks to hear you whimpering in pain over the phone from the fever colds and I can't even be near you, much less hold you in my arms or simply be there for you.

How could I have been here drowning in work when I should have been taking care of you for the past few days? Surely earning the title of "A Filial Child" has to come before "A Diligent Student".

I have been chasing after the wrong things. Now all I really want to do is to put everything down and bring you out for a good meal, if you still have the health to appreciate it. Am I too late?

tagged

Rules: Each player of the game starts off by writing 6 weird things about themselves before choosing another 6 of their friends to sabotage. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog on their own, 6 weird things about themselves and state the rules clearly.

Here goes:

1. I spend money, eat spicy or sweet stuff, thread my eyebrows and clean things to de-stress.
2. I can tolerate mess, but I am a total clean freak who is polkadottaphobic and hate yellow.
3. I am extremely easily amused and laugh uncontrollably most times.
4. I experience pain of various forms every day in my life.
5. My right feet is one centimeter longer than my left.
6. The last person on my mind every night when I go to sleep is my mom.

How much will it cost?

The day started at 7.30AM with light showers in the morning sky. As light trickled in through the window blinds, I could feel Your arms widely outstretched to me. Then the busyness began. Getting ready for school, getting stuck in the morning traffic, getting caught in the rain, getting bored during lecture... and the day goes on.

As I was on my way to church office at Joo Chiat this afternoon to deliver the JUMP! 2007 Conference VIP cards for ten very special people, many thoughts came to mind. I thought of how I came to Hope Church in Jan 2002, the people that were with me back then and where they all have gone to now.

Then I thought of how YWAM was like when I first got transferred there in Jan 2004. So many episodes of wonderful memories began to recollect and so many names came to mind . When I paused to think about the individuals, those long forsaken good times all started coming back, one by one, each and every one so dear.

I then moved on to pioneer TWAM. When I left that stage, it was almost like a severely battered and wounded soldier crawling out of the ruins of a massacre. 'Nuff said.

Now in the adults pastoral ministry, I have embarked on a different route. The past 6 months or so, has seen the most devastating, also the most painful, changes in my life.

Holding on tightly to these cards I have carefully made, I closed my eyes and felt my heart wrench. So many happenings, so many thoughts, so much emotions, so many implications. Out of all, which truly remains?

This could have been OUR dream come true.